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You have to accept everything that Jesus said at face value, or you have to reject everything that Jesus said, because he embodied it all. And his words and example are all internally consistent. It all hangs together. And it is all consistent with everything we know about him and how he lived his life. I did not just say the bible. I said Jesus, Jesus in the synoptic gospels. A. Take it all as he said and lived it, or B. discard it all. That's the choice.
I spend much of every day one way or another, all day long, trying to pour the sanity that is Jesus words and example , back into me. Because without the words, it was poured into me at birth. It was poured into you at birth. The spirit that is holy. Your soul. It's all I was. It's all you were. Until the words of man.
All day long one way or another I'm trying to pour His sanity back into me.
Unexpectedly, but understandably, a dam broke just now and this is what came spilling out of me this morning.
You decide.
Don't say I never gave you anything.
Apprentice James
Warning: Everything but what moves you to discipleship of Jesus is destructive of your health. jesianity.info/search/label/Jesus
Transcript:
Jesus is driving me insane from the vantage point of anyone that isn't me.
Maybe my brother Mark is an exception, but I'm not sure.
I think he was looking a little doubtful last night, and who wouldn't?
Jesus is driving me insane from society's standpoint.
I talk to myself.
It's deliberate.
I'm trying to talk sanity into myself after 75 years.
I'm trying to talk sanity into myself after 75 years.
trying it. Culture's way. Society's way.
And Jesus' way is crazy.
It is so crazy that for 2,000 years we've assumed that he didn't meant what he said.
But despite the fact that what he says is completely internally consistent,
one of his phrases or teachings with the hundreds or a thousand others internally consistent,
despite the fact that his words are consistent with how he lived,
and how he lived is consistent with his words,
for 2,000 years we have been twisting ourselves into pretzels on the idea
He didn't mean what he said.
Let's figure out what he really meant in our terms.
And why would we do that?
Because we had convinced ourselves, we had been convinced that man's way is the right way.
We aren't born to be what our DNA would have us be.
Let's figure out what we really are, and make our children of that.
Hey, this soul thing that we can't understand inside us,
that we can't control, that we can't monetize, that makes us uncontrollable.
Oh, you know, let's say some nice things about that.
But by the time our kids are in their teens, let's be sure that's dead.
Well, this is one who flew over the cuckoo's nest.
I am not suggesting that McMurphy is a Jesus figure.
However, relatively speaking, he absolutely is a Jesus figure.
Relative to Nurse Ratched, relative to the system,
relative to the psychiatrist,
he was alive.
They were these dead things that had been born alive,
and had allowed themselves, and had aggressively participated
in rendering themselves simply societal automatons, machines, script reciters.
Complex scripts, to be sure,
but acting as culture and society told them they should act,
not being the way they had been created to be,
creatures of their mammalian brain, the limbic system.
Of course they had to see McMurphy as crazy.
We are told in the Synoptic Gospels
that Jesus said,
family and community considered him crazy
because
he thought, as evident by
what he made of himself, he thought that the prophets
were right. He thought that the prophets
were to be taken literally and followed literally.
That we
should rediscover what every young child
is. They see everyone as
family. They see everyone as themselves.
They don't see gender. They don't see
race. They don't see ethnicity. They don't
see religion. They see souls
just like themselves. Well, that was Jesus.
He saw everyone as his
flesh and blood. That's crazy to the adults. It is crazy to the adults, and it is complete
sanity to the children and to the few people like the gigantic native man in One Flew Over
the Cuckoo's Nest that haven't been crazy, that haven't been driven crazy by the culture.
I am leaving man's world. I didn't just announce something. I just described
what's happening with me. Man's world is where we limbotomize.
That is,
through atrophy and punishment, crush our limbic system. That's what we do to bring up our children.
That's what we do, thinking it virtue. God bless my dad that stood guard over that and didn't let
it happen. But that's what we do. It is a mass killing field, thinking it virtue.
So what's left is a hyperdeveloped head and flesh without the governor, without the sanity,
without the morality, without the life that is the limbic system. Who can look at a whale or a
dolphin and think, oh, they're not alive? Or a dog, a healthy dog. We look at them and we are in awe,
at the life they have. That's the limbic system. That's the mammalian brain.
We've killed all that in ourselves. We're the system. In One Flew Over a Cuckoo's Nest,
my God, be honest with yourself. Are you not the system? Are you not acting a series of scripts
that are acting the way society wants?
you to act, you're not a product of your limbic system anymore. It's dead.
I am working many hours a day now to make the operating system that the man Jesus
lived and wrote out for us, my operating system. And boy, I'm starting to make major progress.
If I've always been not of this world, well, I'm headed way further out into space. Thank God.
And by societal standards, it's not.
I don't hear voices. I don't know if that will ever happen.
But in the sense of someone speaking to your soul, Jesus speaks to my soul, his words and example.
And as I mentioned before, everything that he says is internally consistent.
And that is so crazy.
Do not think what you would put on or what you will eat.
Is life more than food?
Is life not more than food and body than clothing?
It is written,
Thou shalt worship the Lord thy God, and only him shall thou serve.
And alongside that, he said,
The Father never leaves me, because I always do what pleases him.
That's either nuts, or it was true of him.
He made of himself a servant, not of his head, not of his flesh,
but of his limbic system, of his mammalian brain.
Every breath according to Jesus, and every breath according to his behavior.
And I'm doing the same thing, as fast as I can.
He gave us his operating system.
He wrote it out for us, both in his behavior and his words.
Well, I'm downloading it.
For the life of it.
For the joy of it.
For the sanity of it.
I don't know that my brother Mark, the look on his face,
were wondering, has James gone over the edge this last night?
If he did think that, maybe he's right.
But, but, but, it is not right to think.
That is to say, I am moving towards sanity.
I am moving toward the sanity that every young child has
before we destroy their sanity.
And I'm doing it for me, because if I can do it for me,
I might lead someone else to return to their sanity,
to what they were designed to be.
The city of Cortez, 10,000 people, the large town of Cortez,
is as nice a town as I've ever been in.
Amazingly so.
I can't believe the court system.
From what I can see, those folks are all going to heaven.
Many of the police are going to heaven.
Incredible.
But the people in the system in One Flew Over a Cuckoo's Nest
were also nice people.
And they weren't sane like children.
Who began to become sane in One Flew Over a Cuckoo's Nest?
The inmates of the psych ward.
And why did that happen?
For the same reason they were in the psych ward to begin with.
They were too sane to be outside.
They were too sane to not react as the system as crazy.
And what I'm reflecting on at the moment is
some of the most sane people I've ever met
are my kin, my flesh and blood,
on the streets of Cortez.
They are more loving
They are more child-healthy.
There's almost no judgmentalism.
There, among many of them, is no grudge-holding.
There is unconditional love and acceptance.
There is understanding of people with severe psychological issues
that I'm hoping to approach the level that they have.
It's astonishing, and that's shameful.
And they're on the streets for the same reason that the inmates were in the asylum.
They were too sane.
They couldn't fit in the society.
And James McGinley, that is, James McMurphy speaking to you here,
may be starting to help them find the courage
to more fully grasp the life that is in them.
Maybe not.
It may be fleeting, but there are signs.
The James McGinley, the James McMurphy,
is helping them re-grasp more fully
the life within them that they have been afraid to embrace.
Through my words, occasionally.
Through my example.
Standing out there at 6.15 in the morning
before the door,
before anyone arrives,
with hot coffee.
Taking verbal blows
from evil spirits around me
in people
without responding in kind
day after day,
hour after hour.
Taking the disrespect,
the aggressive disrespect
of people in the system toward me
without responding in kind.
Either externally or internally.
Seeing the world in terms of spirits.
That's an inadequate word,
but it's the best one I can say.
Any of us can relate to the idea of a happy spirit
or a sad spirit.
We might call them moods.
That's what I'm referring to.
And I'm now.
I'm now.
So much more empowered internally and externally
to see me and others in terms of spirits inside us.
I don't know exactly what's going on neurologically.
I don't know exactly what's going on with gravity.
But I have concepts that help me now navigate both.
I have a spirit in me
that is holy.
And I believe it exists in everyone
because I know it exists in every young child.
And I have spirits that aren't that.
And I was taught to have those spirits that aren't that
be my life, be me.
And that's exactly totally wrong.
That's exactly totally opposite.
I am the spirit that is holy within me.
What does it profit a person to gain the whole world
and lose their own soul?
Jesus meant everything that he said or he meant nothing that he said
because it all hangs together.
You either have to.
And because it's internally consistent, you have to accept it all, or you have to reject it all.
And of course, we reject it all and replace it with that white Christian abomination, Jesus,
that is his antithesis, is his antithesis.
At the root of it, why am I doing what I'm doing?
Why am I turning myself over to Jesus, to the operating system that Jesus gave us,
which isn't his operating system?
It is our operating system that he rediscovered.
Why am I turning myself over to that?
Because it is the best drug supply possible.
We can't live.
We can't live without neurotransmitters, pleasure chemicals.
We kill ourselves when we don't have pleasure chemicals, neurotransmitters,
that are making our lives feel better than suicide.
Or we go into a...
We go into a coma, clinically, when our neurotransmitters shut down.
Those are the three options are to stay alive, commit suicide, or be in a coma.
Well, I was raised to be greedy.
I was raised directly and indirectly to think life is supposed to feel awesome.
And I tried the pleasure route.
I tried the safety and popularity and wealth route.
It was better than suicide, but not by much.
And I've always been drawn to Jesus.
I've always been drawn to his quality of life.
I take no credit for that.
I give the credit to my biological father, whether he thought of it that way or not.
He was a cauldron of quality of life inside that I thought was divine,
I thought was superior to anything else I saw.
And through that, I saw Jesus the same way.
I want that drug supply that Jesus had, every breath.
And I'm getting it.
I've got it, and I'm getting it more intensely.
His operating system is my supplier.
The operating system that he found and wrote out for us,
he rediscovered and wrote out for us,
turns us into...
...individual sources of chemicals
that give us a feeling that is superior to any other way of being,
even in a hell world,
especially in the hell world that is now surrounding us
and coming upon us like a tsunami.
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